As the days get darker,
So does my heart.
From feeling all alone
To falling apart.
The Holidays bring about in
Me a bittersweet feeling.
The excitement all around
Can be so appealing.
How I would love to have
No concerns or bad memories.
To just sit back and be
Carefree in the festivities.
More often than not I
ruin a perfectly good dinner.
All because it seems the
Air I breathe is much thinner.
When the table is set for
The people who "are" there.
I can't help but wonder;
Which daughter would occupy which chair.
So as I mentally prepare
For the Holidays ahead.
I continue to try to delete
The mental delusions from my head.
Alone and afraid of
How I will make a mistake.
Sometimes I wonder if
I just shouldn't partake.
Thankful for a lot in my life
Of course I am.
But How do I forget
My Halle & Emma?
Forget I can not, but I
Will keep on trying.
Trying to make it through
A Holiday without crying.
Grief is a journey of which no one can prepare. And if you have never been on it please don't pretend "You've been there."
~by Amanda Marie Mitchell
